The following page is full of sad love letters so please feel free to scroll through until you find something that gives you inspiration for your own love letter.
My sweetest Amy,
I am sitting here looking at your empty chair at the kitchen table and trying to hold myself together. I probably shouldn’t be writing this, but you always remind me to express what I am feeling, so here goes. I know you need me to be strong, and I will be, but at the moment, I am feeling so lonely and so terribly worried. Sitting at our table, usually filled with delicious food and surrounded with laughter, is so difficult without your cheerful presence here to calm my heart. I simply cannot fathom why you have been struck down by this horrible, unfair illness, you of all people! Your incredible kindness, joy of life and shining example to all of us are a daily inspiration for me. You are my life, my joy and my only love and always will be.
Ah, there is the essence of what I need to cling to, you always will be! This is just a temporary test of our strength. You will recover and our lives will return to normal. I’m sure of it. You are surrounded by the finest, most experienced doctors we could find, and I know they will perfectly do their job and pull you through this. It takes more than just doctors though, and in addition to them you have all my love and tender thoughts and the same coming from everyone in your gracious family. They are an incredible help for me too. Just like your beautiful optimism, you mother and sisters can cheer me up even on the darkest days. Thank you for bringing such amazing people into my life. Oh dear, I’m not sure I have thanked them for all they are doing for us. See, without you here I even forget my manners!
I have been trying my best to keep the house in good order while you are gone, but everywhere I go in this house reminds me of your absence. I see you trying on your new dress and smiling at your reflection in the mirror, I think I smell your luscious cooking when I open the front door after work only to find an empty kitchen, and how empty the bed feels without the comfort of your warmth next to me. Ah, I am doing it again, feeling like a ghost wandering through a silent house. If only the hospital were closer, I could spend the nights near you and still be able to get up and go to work. I feel so awful that they won’t give me time off so I can be there for you every moment of your stay in the hospital.
I may not send this letter on to you; I certainly don’t intend to burden you with my sadness when you need every speck of your strength to battle the cancer. But, just writing this has put hopefulness into my soul, as I know you will recover and our relationship will be stronger than ever, and our days together will be long and full of joy and love. You are the world to me…and always will be!
I will love you forever!
[Name Withheld to Protect the Innocent]
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To the love of my life
You occupy a space in my heart and soul that no one will ever be able to replace. There are no words to describe how much I miss you. No words that can ever take away the pain that I feel. No words to describe how much I love you. I don’t know how I am going to cope without you. I am just grateful for the time that we shared together, it was too short; but I got to spend time with an angel, and I will treasure those memories until the day that I die.
Even though you are gone, I see you in the eyes of our beautiful boys every day, they look so much like you, and are a constant reminder of why I have to stay strong. They miss their mummy so much; I tell them not to worry because you are in heaven I tell them that God wanted you to do something for him so he had to call you upstairs, but that we will all meet again when God calls us upstairs. It makes things easier for them but it is still hard, I know you are watching over us, guiding us and giving me the strength that I need to keep on going. Even though we knew it was the end, it does not and will not make your departure any easier.
I admire how you had the strength to plan out how we were going to raise the children, the letters that you wrote to them, the things that you want me to tell them about you. You had more energy than me doing those things and you were the one whose life was slipping away. I tell them how much you love them every day, and I read your letters to them every morning and night, we carry you in our hearts each day.
You are a shining star, the brightest one in the sky. I long for the day when we will meet again my sweet love.
I love you.
[Name Withheld to Protect the Innocent]
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Dear Rachel,
I hope you’re not getting tired of these letters – at least it’s just once a year on Valentine’s Day that I write to you. I know, it’s romantic and silly at the same time, but I started 10 years ago and I just can’t seem to stop. It helps me get through the cruel irony that you passed away on this day, of all days!
First of all, let me give you an update on the family. Emmie and her husband are doing just fine, and so are the grandkids. They did have to move out of their house (I saw the moving truck one day), but they seem to be OK in their rented place. Josh finally met a girl he has stayed with for over a year – I’ve seen them at the Tastee Freez 2 summers in a row now. They look happy, just like we were so many summers ago. And of course good old Tom is still doing great from all appearances – I stop by the hardware store once a week or so and have a chat with him – he still has that great dry sense of humor which helps me through.
My special memory for this year is the time we went to that concert at Golden Gate Park, against our parents’ wishes of course. It was our summer of love and I’ll never forget how beautiful you were in the sun, with the brightly colored balloons and the incense filling our senses, and the music playing on and on. Fantastic, beautiful, trippy music that we’ll never hear again, because it really died a long time ago.
But that memory is better in its box, where it stays with the other sad ones. I only bring out the good ones these days, since they seem to help me cope with life without you.
Until next year,
All my love,
[Name Withheld to Protect the Innocent]
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